Countdown 'Merdeka'

It's August 30th, I'm sure most of rakyat Malaysia will make countdown crowd tonight. Yes, August 31st is our Independence Day. Looking back to few previous years .. I used to celebrate the night with friends too. But this year .. I'm alone. "Alone with the Moon"

And I think, its been a long mad weeks for me. Yea YOU! You got me mad. I won't be sorry for all those bad messages I sent you. You've broke my heart. I will blame you for everything. I won't stop.

I'm Home

Reached home safely yesterday and directly went to church.
It's a relieve .. Thanks God for everything.
Be grateful, be thankful ya!!

But, there's something bothered my mind all the way til now actually.
He seems to be so not-like-usual.
I hope, he won't do it :'(

I <3 U man.

L_o_v_E ♡

Wake up with bad hair this morning.
Hm! My hair need to be shampooed. I'm using L'oreal - Total Repair 5.
Just right after take my shower, as usual, I checked what time it is;
8:12am
And owh! There's a message in while I was in the bathroom.
It was from him: 'Mrng Cynt..'
Yeaa, I received the same message almost every morning since 3 years ago.
There's so much with you that I am already getting used to.
I'm afraid of what will happened tomorrow.
Afraid to lose you completely.
I still will call you love.

Went to work and I'm late as usual.
I don't really give a damn. I don't have title but I always do what I want.
As for me, as long as I'm committed with my job, its all that matter.
Time discipline? Better not talk about it to me. I'm stuck with that problem. Haha!
It's good to work here, there's nothing to shit about.
Except lately, I found out that those girls in the office are kinda asshole.
Oh shit girls come on! Shut the fuck up.

Sooooo here I am in my room again. I have to pack up. I'm about to leave tomorrow.
Meeting family back at home. I hope Mommy will make me my favorite foods during my off days.

Back to the phone tale, will you text me tonight??!

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times I told you everything You know my feelings It never crossed my mind That there would be a time For us to say goodbye What a big surprise">

The Call

I don't know why I get to miss him so much today. He's not my boyfriend anymore but, I will never call him ex instead. NO! I really don't like that word. Benci tau!

I just call him up, telling how I miss him damn much today. I really want to hear him talking just bout anything to me, but seems like that kind of favor is 'too much' for him. Owh! My bad! Yeah, he always do that to me. He could not see what I feel inside. He cannot see through me, which is very sad

What kills the beat of my heart every time I call him up is when he says that he really got nothing to say to me. Man. Urgh!! What a girl wants, you know. I'm so unhappy, upset, down, disappointed, depressed. Well done. You stressed me.

This is my first time writing in my own blog.
I hope I won't pause writing what I got in my mind here.